Through the questions.

Taken from a personal journal dated Sunday, March 30, 2008. A year and a half ago, and yet still so relevant today. I think this expresses the searching and questions and desires of many young single Christian women. Maybe someone reading today will be able to connect. And so I share...

Green = Growth
I want/need/desire/expect to grow in this next season.

I want to take on the adventures.
And with energy.
And with people that I love and that love me.
I think that's my biggest struggle right now.

Erickson's Intimacy vs. Isolation. He is so right on. Right now in life is exactly about figuring this out. To what extent am I developing significant, intimate relationships? Who really loves and understands me? To what extent am I willing to reach out for connection verses waiting for someone else to initiate or verses retreating to my home in isolation? Tough questions. Yes, I am develoipng friendships and yes, my life is meaningful. But I do still want a best best friend who really understands me to my core. And to what extent can I even expect that from a human relationship as opposed to need to seek that in my relationship with God? Hmm.

Father, There are so many questions.
Please help me trust and worship not in spite of the questions, but through the questions, Father.

I know that You are the Good Father and that You have given us guidelines, instructions, words, letter because You love us. You want Your best for us, even more thatn we do (and yes, that is still hard to believe and accept, still working on it).

Through the questions.
Through the questions.